Pseudo-Daily Writing

So I really like the new God of War - Primarily because it is so different from the old God of War titles. See, here's the thing - My personal taste in video games can be summed up as "I like to be challenged" or "I like to be intrigued".  If a game has a good story, it's less a game and more of an interactive movie, which I like.  If a game has a challenge, it motivates me to overcome that challenge, because dammit I am going to get that damn boss.  Games that combine the two are generally the ones I count as favorites, and I suppose that's why a lot of older games tend to be the ones I remember fondly - they were challenging because they HAD to be.  They were difficult by design, but not because the designers set out to make things unreasonably difficult - because they needed to keep you coming back, either sinking in quarters or spending time with their game at home instead of giving money to competitors. I don't generally like to sum it up th...

I've been listening to the same piano song for over a half hour while I just... think.  Well, not really think, I suppose.  I realize that I do this a lot - Say something, and then counter with "Well, not really x".  I do it a lot more in text than I do out loud, because I generally catch myself. Anyway - It's the piano version of Aeris' Theme from Final Fantasy VII, which I wasn't a fan of when I first played the game (20. Years. Ago.) but it just... relaxes me, now. It helps me to clear my head.  Which is why I said thinking, but not really thinking - More just clearing out my head, because the past few days have been chaotic in my headspace and my heartspace, and I just needed to hit pause.  I actually took tomorrow off, not to see Avengers (which is what the assumption was, and is totally valid), but just to take some time by myself and clear out the cobwebs.  Knock the rust off. So I did commissioned artwork this week.  I never really do that,...

So daily lasted two days.  Then 5 off.  Let's circle back to square one and talk about why I'm single. I don't like saying "I don't want to date"... I mean, I've said it a lot since getting divorced, but the more I think about it the more I don't really think it fits.  Here's the thing, if I tell someone "I don't want to date", it comes across as "I will not date".  That's not really the case, I think it's more appropriate to say "I don't NEED to date".. "I don't NEED a relationship" The truth is, I would date.  Part of me does want a relationship, a person to come home to.  Someone to talk to about my day, my worries, my hopes and dreams.  I want that, but I don't need it.  I don't need another person to be there and listen to me.  I don't need a person to rest in my arms and tell me about their hopes and dreams, how their day went.  I don't, at the end of the day, nee...

I was never really great about setting goals in the early part of my life (Up until... Say 28).  I would set this grand, lofty goal, and then... just... stop.  And that's not to say I never accomplished anything, I mean I could set professional goals and reach them, I'm talking moreso about self improvement goals. Like, for instance, writing something every day.  Drawing something every day.  Working out every day.  Dieting. Dieting especially.  And working out, really. Anyway, once I separated, I had a much greater motivation to set goals for personal improvement and stick to them.  Initially, it was out of spite - I got a LOT of negative feedback from my ex, and I took a lot of it to heart and eventually made the conscious decision to either confront that feedback and rise above it, or dwell on it and feel awful.  So I changed.  I started eating much healthier - Salads, cut out soda, no candy, virtually no fast food.  Which was r...

I've decided to start trying to write something daily.  Realistically, we're talking more like 4-5 days a week, tops.  Why? I don't know, it's just cathartic I suppose.  There's no set topic at this point - Today I'm writing about my dating life (or lack thereof) because I had a conversation about it and now it's in my head.  But I could just as easily write about a book, movie, or game I've been enjoying.  Maybe a short story or two.  Who knows? So anyway, dating and relationships. The weird thing is, I thought a lot of people who said dating is different after divorce (or the end of any long relationship) were just having issues moving on - And to an extent, I still think that's true.  Though in my experience even after moving on, it really is a different experience.  It changes the approach in my experience, in both good and bad ways. So I would say, as a kind estimate to myself, that I was ready to pursue relationships roughly 6 months a...